Sunday, January 07, 2007

Goals:2007

So it is a little bit late for me to be all New Years resolutiony and favorite memories from 2006 blah blah blah. Which usually isn't really me anyways. At least not in any sort of tangible format that I can come back and look upon and realize how badly I have strayed or how different my life has become and how I have ended up somewhere weirdly wonderful that I never anticipated in my wildest dreams. Life's funny like that. And some days I think I would like more of a documentation of my hopes and dreams, awkward moments and heartaches. I just wish I was a little better at translating my thoughts and sometimes fleeting feelings into the written word, a little bit more comfortable sharing those parts of me with those of you still reading.

But I have been thinking lately about how things have changed and how things are changing and I guess in some ways I wonder if making a list of what I hope to accomplish in 2007 will at least give me the pretense of some sort of control over my life. Because it is changing and I am changing and sometimes I wonder what would happen if things just stopped for a second, would I have some understanding of the master plan? would I feel less reactionary? would I feel like I was actually making a difference? Or would I just fixate on things that in the grand scheme of things, in retrospect, never really mattered.

So here we go.

1. Volunteer somewhere
2. Continue meeting new people (so far the people Calgary has introduced into my life have been fantastic - Jenna, Brom, Grant, Crystal (Orlando!!), Simone to name but a few - so I am hoping I continue to have luck in this area)
3. Be better informed
4. Read more
5. Get over the AWKWARD and see where things lead
6. Visit: Vancouver, Las Vegas and where ever B ends up in the fall, Edmonton (but I think that goes without saying)
7. Buy a new car
8. Figure out a long term place to live - buy a condo?? (I'm freaking out here)
9. Continue to excel at my job, continue to love my job, continue to learn how to do my job better
10. Sing more, dance more, play more
11. Figure out what to say and how to say it (speech for my sister's wedding)
12. Lose the "Freshman 10" I've gained since moving to Calgary
13. Enjoy a healthy lifestyle - eat better, work out consistently, listen to my body
14. Learn
15. Love
16. Dream
17. Be less critical of myself
18. Be bold
19. Write more (which I know I keep saying. I blame working on a computer all day meaning I never want to turn mine on when I'm at home. But I can keep a paper journal. Or suck it up and turn on my computer anyways.)
20. Write honestly
21. Keep in touch with those I love
22. Be creative
23. Take photos
24. Worry less - make the most informed decisions possible and accept that what will be will be.
25. Phase out negativity
26. BE - be happy, sad, angry, frustrated, scared. Don't apologize for it.
27. bake, cook, explore new foods
28. Move on - get rid of the jacket, confront the insecurities, dare to be hurt again. It really is time.
29. Move forward
30. Embrace change - it certainly isn't going anywhere